Grateful for where I am

Lately I have struggled spiritually a lot. I am going through roller coaster rides these days. I am yet to learn how to “go on the heights”. I feel so completely out of control when it comes to the matter of taking care of Ethan. Often times, I feel despaired, and have no strength to carry on. I keep saying to myself that I don’t have anything that’s needed to be a good mom. All these happened because I let my eyes move away from our LORD Jesus. I forgot how loving, how merciful, how powerful HE is. Our LORD is the one who daily bears our burdens, and he cares for us. I do believe that whatever I am going through is under God’s control, and HE has a good purpose for it. This morning, I am especially grateful for the fact that I can NOT carry on with my life when I do not abide by the Spirit. I am grateful HE doesn’t let me go on with my life without HIM involved.

Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for me? - Jeremiah 32:27

因耶和华欢欣，因就救我的神喜乐

雖然無花果樹不發旺、葡萄樹不結果、橄欖樹也不效力、田地不出糧食、圈中絕了羊、棚內也沒有牛． 然而我要因耶和華歡欣、因救我的　神喜樂。 主耶和華是我的力量．他使我的腳快如母鹿的蹄、又使我穩行在高處。 - 哈 巴 谷 書:3:17-19

May Prayer Requests

當 將 你 的 事 交 託 耶 和 華 ， 並 倚 靠 他 ， 他 就 必 成 全 。Commit everything you do to the LORD. Trust him, and he will help you.（ 詩 37:5 ） Please post your prayer requests by adding comments to this post. Bring your thanks, or praises, or worries or burdens to the Lord, pour out your heart before Him. We'll pray for you too.

不忧不惧，不急躁，不烦恼，安静是一切力量的根源

The theme of May in the book "Stream in the Desert" is "不忧不惧，不急躁，不烦恼，安静是一切力量的根源”。 This theme speaks right to my heart. It seems to target the major weaknesses in my personality. How many times have I been worried? How many times have I been afraid? How many times have I been impatient? How long can I keep mouth shut? More importantly, how long can I keep mind quiet before the LORD? Hebrews 4:11 says "Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest". When Christian believers pass away, we often hear the phrase saying someone "has rested in the LORD". I surely don't want to wait till death to be able to enter that rest. If I lift up my eyes to Jesus, I will then find the strength and ability to rest in HIM. My major problem is that too often I am distracted by the worldly things and forgot that:

4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. 5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. 6 This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles. 7 The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them. 8 Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. 9 Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing. 10 The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing. - Psalm 34 4:10

When can I take Lord's word for it? I am one of those with little faith, but God has mercy on those who seek HIM. LORD, may I always have the thirst and hunger for you and your words!

Be still, and know who our GOD really is!